World of Indulgence...

2010-07-03T03:57:00.002+08:00

当你发现原来你爱的人一直觉得你很让她难看。。是那么的痛。。
当你发现原来她和你在一起是因为感动而不是因为爱。。是那么痛。。
当你发现原来她早已等你提出分手。。是那么的痛。。
当你发现原来她和另一个他。。是那么的痛。。
为什么？？
其实我早明了。。但我就是太固执。。
这一次。。我真的哭了。。

I'm missing you
Girl even though you're right here by my side
Cause lately it seems
The distance between us is growing too wide

I'm so afraid that you're saying it's over
It's the last thing that I wanna hear

But if your heart's not in it, for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world, for you
Anything you ask of me, I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it

You say that you love me
But baby sometimes
You're just saying the words
If you've got something to tell me
Don't keep it inside
Let it be heard

I'm so afraid that you're saying it's over
Girl I'll make it easy for you

How I wish I could take us back in time
But it's gone too far now we can't rewind
There's nothing I can do
To stop from losing you
I can't make you change your mind
If your heart's not in it

2010-06-16T10:27:00.002+08:00

you'll neva rmb the songs i gave you..
couldn't rmb when's the last time i ever held your hands.. and i've forgotten how to hold them..
couldn't rmb when's the last time i took pics with you..
hasn't received a birthday kiss/hug from you since the 1st yr..
has everything ended between us way before 2010?

i gave you the freedom u wanted and all my love..
i tried to compromise in almost everything..
i tried to come close to u.. bt u always push me away..
u said u were joking.. but do you noe the hurt i felt?
i tried my best but in the end..
all u said was i did not grow up and our thinking are different..
where's the love we've once shared? or maybe it doesn't even exist..

all these while i felt u're just treating me as a companion..
telling ur frens tat i'm your ex when we're still together..
telling ur frens that i'm just one of your suitors..

this is not wad i wanted.. i decided to leave..
leaving is the best choice..
i'll nt feel the hurt anymore..
u need nt lie to ur frens bout me.. and neither do
you need to try balance yourself between ur priorities and me

u'll find someone much better than me..
这次我真的走了。。谢谢你成给我过一段美好的回忆。。真正让我觉得我真正属 CLSW：feb 2008 - dec 2008..

the only memories i have with you is the times i accompanied you for classes..
accompanying you when u doing assignments and studies..
getting so excited when you coming over my hse to stay..
going ktv pubs with you.. holding onto your hands.. thinking this the last hands i'll ever hold onto..
slacking at your poolside.. hugging u tightly in my arms..
sending emails to you every morning..
chatting with you over the fone till we sleep..

2009-11-26T02:16:00.002+08:00

received a surprise from dear.. she came fetch me from work though she's sick..
appreciated n loves...
thanks dear for the effort made.. loves u to bits.. muackz..
let's work hard for a brand new start k.. =))

2009-09-17T01:13:00.003+08:00

she was on vacation for the past 1 yr.. and she'll still be on vacation for the next few yrs..
going to places lyk US, Japan, n asian countries..

she's enjoying her long break while i'm missing her here..

2009-07-10T09:32:00.000+08:00

Below was extracted from a fren's blog..

This is what a friend told me when she was at a wedding ceremony and the pastor was giving a speech. This was what the pastor said: Compatibility I'snt about how a couple must like the same things, the same food, the same activities and have the same thinking. Many people who have relationship problems wonder what is compatibility in a relationship. Arguing in a relationship does not mean you and your partner are not compatible. Every couple has disagreements and some have them more than others do. The key to arguing/quarrels in a relationship is finding a solution to the argument that both people can deal with and accept. One can't possible like everything or agree to everything their partner does. A party that like weight lifting, That doesnt mean that his/her partner has to like the same thing. A party that like KFC, doesnt mean that his/partner has to always eat the same food that he/she likes. There's bound to be differences whether you like it or not. It is how a couple is able to compromise & adapt to each other Likes, Dislikes & Differences. Last but not least, being able to Love care appreciate and Most importantly, wanting to work together hand in hand through thick and thin.

2009-07-07T13:38:00.000+08:00

07.07.09 - she's away for 1 yr..

time flies.. been exactly 1 yr since she left..
nt a single hour/minute/second less. 1338 hours..

i miss you..

2009-07-03T10:48:00.002+08:00

Our 1st yr anni trip.. =) 27th June - 1st July 09

26.06.09 - dear came over and stay..
27.06.09 - met xx, nasty, amy bro and gf at T1 ard 4.30am.. arrival at HK airport ard 11am..
went citygate and checking in at hotel.. CL had a very awful dinner.. =X
28.06.09 - went Causeway Bay for a walk and over to Ladies St. till late at nite..
poor CL had maggie mee and white carrot for dinner..
29.06.09 - our 1st yr anniversary finalli... went over to the peak.. had our fantastic dinner at
Pearl on the Peak.. dinner was awesome with table presentation and bird eye view
of HK.
30.06.09 - CL bought me something which we called Our Own.. our very first Couple thingy..
Our Ring..
01.07.09 - sprained my ankle while rushing across the st. to SASA.. =X and we're back to
Sin.. =(

dear.. Celebrating another year with you is truly a blessing. Regardless of what we've been thru this year my heart still belongs to you. I'm looking forward to celebrating many more Anniversaries by your side. Happy 1st yr Anniversary baby. I Love You.

we'll have more our trips ya.. =) look forward to it.. loves to bits..

2009-05-18T16:12:00.004+08:00

To CL:

You gave me the stability n security which I need and in turn, it is my responsibility to give you the same and not forsake you eventually. We work very hard together and come together at the end of the day to share our wish and happiness. During this 1 yr we have our ups and downs, joys and arguments. I believe all these will help us construct a stronger rapport which will withstand all obstacles in times to come. I’m glad to be the chosen one and I do cherish every single things bout you.

JC loves CL.

2009-05-08T15:11:00.001+08:00

Me fell sick le.. =((
Bad bad bad flu, sore throat, body aching n fever..
Surprising wor.. came home ard 6plus ytd and fell asleep till this morning 7plus.. work up for work..
Dad asked me if I came home wee hours tis morning.. I told him I was home before 7pm.. hmm..
Wanted so much to haf a bowl of porridge.. if onli she’s ard, she’ll cook for me or get 1 for me..

Din wan dad to know I’m sick.. dunno y.. bt just dun feel lyk..

2009-04-20T12:20:00.000+08:00

Amy bro landed in hospital.. went over to visit her on sat wif CLtub n ade..
Wow.. saw her pig’s trotter.. hahaah..
Left hospital ard 3pm for my mj session at colleague’s place..
Hmm.. went back hospital with jasper bro n xx to accompany amy.. haaha.. we had mini feasting at the hospital siaz.. bought a lot of food from cheers.. =P

My tubby gave me a surprise tat nite.. =P
She met her ex n frens for dinner n chill out.. n she wanted to come over.. bt was tinking by the time she reach amy n frieda’s already feeling sleepy.. so ask tubby nt to come.. she can go home n rest after her chilling out..
Received her msg when I reach home.. she says : do u wan anything from S11? Ahem..”
Diaox.. she’s at AMK S11… hahaaha… whee.. din expect her to come over.. I tot she’s suppose to go home.. cuz she’s celebrating mother’s day on sun wif all her relatives.. o.O”
Tada… she’s back at my place again.. keke.. *surprise surprise surprise*
She neva fail to surprise me wif her sudden pop up.. haaha.. bt my sudden appearance were alwaiz expected by her.. o.O”

Sent CL home on sun late afternoon.. n I pop by at jasper’s hse.. suppose to meet up wif amy.. bt in the end she’s meeting her net fren.. n we’re late.. o.O
Took train back to amk n head for serangoon.. hmm.. she came over my place n ton n as usual.. I’m late.. bt tis time.. she’s awake before me.. haaha.. y??
Cuz she din catch a wink the whole nite.. she was hogging on the fone.. o.O””””” BUT!!!!!!! I’m still late.. cuz she fell asleep at 7plus..

Tonite having feasting at amy’s place.. yeah.. been a long long time since we had one.. haaha.. amy’s making almond jelly with longan n lychee.. yum…
Can’t wait for tonite’s feasting.. I’m hungry… gRRrrrr….

2009-04-15T10:48:00.003+08:00

We've finalize to hold our 1st yr anni celebration at HK with xX, jesse, amy n frieda.. =)
whee.. reali looking forward to it.. haha.. bet its gonna be very happening.. too bad jasper couldn't make it.. i'm gonna save up for me n CL's shopping spree.. hahaah..

my tub has been very busy and tired recently.. poor tubby.. *sayang*
bt she still make it a point to surprise me on 2 occasion.. heex.. popping up at Live much earlier than i expected and coming over to accompany me on fri.. =P *appreciated*

failed my TP on 1st attempt.. din expect to fail cuz had prepared myself.. guess it was due to the long waiting hours at BBDC which make me felt tired.. when my turn came, my legs suddenly became jelly.. o.O" imagine i went up kerb at S course and parking was attrocious.. MY GOD!!!
i neva failed my S course and parking during all my trainings.. my parking was perfect mann.. imagine my parallel done within secs.. shit mann.. haiz..

hmm.. recently has been tinking n missing her lots.. mothers' day's round the corner.. still rmb last yr i got her a bag n she dislike it.. hmmm.. first time she dislike the present wor.. tot of making up by getting her a new wallet and bringing her for dinner for tis yr.. bt..

2009-02-04T15:43:00.002+08:00

what CL got for JC dear:
a Pedro bag for me, Pedro key chain named Wish n Happiness, (this key chain resembles us.. our WISH came true and i'm her HAPPINESS), everlast shoe, Titus watch for me.. whee.. my xmas present cum valentine present.. =PpP there's one more present which she hasn't got for me.. n i doubt she'll get it done.. the 1st bag she got for me has got a HOLE!!! she claims she's going to help me sew... bt she gt me a new bag instead.. =X

what JC got for CL dear:
a 0.38 carat diamond ring from Lee Hwa n.. hmm.. she hasn't chosen wad else she wanted.. probably a LV bag or a Coach clutch.. bt most probably a lappy.. psst.. she hasn't chosen her valentine present.. for xmas present, i made her a musical box out of seashells collected from my Batam trip with Jasper Bro.. the song in this box is "Memories" =)) nice creation.. whahha... bhb..

going celebrate XX's birthday tonite.. wahhaah.. got a pleasant surprise for her.. hope she lyk our planning.. hahaha..

2009-01-06T15:57:00.002+08:00

spent my new yr countdown at Pan Pac.. booked a paranomic room for dear as her xmas cum new yr present.. heex.. louis, gordon, jasper n eddyn came over for the countdown.. cool..

love the fireworks.. believes all of us enjoyed and loves tat day.. =P
quick.. say thanks to me.. poof!!!

wow.. had a great view of the fireworks.. our room was on 30th level.. too bad xx nt ard.. whaahha.. =P well.. she viewed the fireworks at Amara too..

hmm.. had breakfast at the club room the next day.. sweet!

I Love Hotel Stay!!!
thanks dear for the approval.. keke.. =pPpPP

nnnnnnn.. dun bite meeee.... *runs*

2008-12-26T16:03:00.003+08:00

hmm.. my gf's CLtub have so many clothings.. my poor JCs have limited..

yeah.. fried toufu tis weekend.. hahah.. my gf's cooking for me.. whee~~

2008-12-22T10:30:00.002+08:00

nice nice lunch ytd.. dad cook yong tau foo and stream prawn.. haha.. he bought 2 packs of tang yuan too.. hmm. simple bt sweet.. we had 2 big bowl of rice.. damn full.. we fell asleep after lunch.. pigg... woke up ard 3pm.. went out met adeline n her nephew darren.. walk ard n had dinner before going LIVE.. met jasper there.. haha.. taught darren hw to play pool... whee.. train him to be a pro by the age of 16.. haha.. eh he's nt a bad player.. fast learner..

planned to go LIVE on xmas eve.. guess its gonna be fun.. drink play drunk.. haha..

Oh Come All Ye Faithful.. Joyful And Triumph..

2008-12-11T16:55:00.002+08:00

was chatting with Kat earlier on.. just realise what a pathetic year.. fancy spending my favourite festive alone.. haiz.. the most pathetic yr in my whole life.. hopefully by then adeline will be free to at least get somewhere..

come to think of it.. since young, i spend every xmas at chalet or hotels with my parents and aunts n cousins.. even though there isn't a chalet or hotel, there'll surely be a xmas dinner.. =)
till the age of 18, i started spending it either playing mj or pubbing with frens..

tis yr.. i'm gonna enjoy it to the fullest even though i'm gonna be alone. haaha.. how can i possibly let it be a pathetic festive.. shall go for a sumptuous xmas dinner.. followed by pubbing.. haaha.. let's start searching for a nice place for a quiet xmas dinner..

2008-12-11T14:56:00.007+08:00

Sec 4C 1997
seeing these fotos posted on some of ex-sjcians sec 4C '97 brings back fond memories. Memories of how we use to tackle our teachers. The big family with all the "KORs" JIEs" "DIs".. I'm still wondering who the hell started posting all the primary and secondary school's pic. esp those SUPER DUPER UGLY pics of mine.. argh!!!! but still.. Sec 4C '97 rawks...

2008-12-10T11:12:00.003+08:00

just came back from a short trip with jasper bro.
went Batam Nongsa point.
supposingly to have Xx ard for this trip. but she sprained her back..
met up with bro at my workplace and board a cab down to Tanah Merah Terminal.
was quite lost at first. luckily managed to find our que for the ferry.
haaha.. was quite fun.. bt as usual nag n nag at bro.. cuz she loves to deli dali.
came back Sin ard 7plus.. went straight home with bro n his gf for mj.. played till 4am.

added alot of my Sec 4C 97 classmates in fb ytd.
realised some of them are air stewardess, some were situated overseas lyk Helsinki for training.
wow.. cool.. sportswomen.
hmm.. come to think of it.. what am i..
i'm still here in Sin.. a freight forwarder..
its time to create a better future path for my career.

was considering the change for quite some time..
some says 2009 is nt a good yr to make a change.
still i wanna give a try.
the only thing that's holding me back is
the fear of making the first step out of the comfort zone that embraced me for past 8 yrs.

back to the topic.. i guess after viewing their profile,
I'VE DECIDED TO STEP OUT NO MATTER WHAT!!
i don't want to be immovable.

there goes my 2009 resolution:
step out from comfort zone
save up
trip to Taiwan and Australia/Europe with my tubby
obtain my car license before June

2008-12-05T12:49:00.000+08:00

2008-11-24T10:09:00.003+08:00

22.11.08

met ade on the bus to parkway.. as usual, boon reach before us.. haaha.. he got me shampoo and soap cuz i forgot to bring from home.. o.O"
we planned to go tanning and boating at ecp.. bt my boat has no paddle.. n they scare the wave might sweep us away.. diaox..
hmm.. ade was damn late.. we reach parkway ard 3plus.. had lunch n boon paid for it as usual.. he's alwaiz faster than me when comes to paying bill.. o.O"
we did nt make it for tanning cuz the sun in the east seems to be sleeping at the mistress place at west.. Arghhh!!!!!

we went snookering instead.. played for almost 3 hours.. ahaha.. guess it was due to the rain dat make all of us lazy to walk ard.. n it was too cosy in there le.. haaha..
well.. tis time i was fast enuff to pay for the game.. haha.. dear msg me when she was driving to meet nicole n gang for dinner at amk.. she ask me go over her place stay wor.. whee~~
we drop by at parkway's cold storage.. got dear 2 packs of strawberries.. boon n ade bought strawberries and chips.. as usual.. chips n chips n chips.. o.O"
begining to buy chips myself too when shopping at cold storage.. diaox..

had dinner at the market again.. the place where we had our lunch.. tis time me n ade had mian xian.. yummy.. the soup is nice.. taste lyk bak kut teh.. keke.. shall bring dear there one of these days.. whee~~

dear came fetch me at parkway ard 8plus.. she lost her way.. poor goose.. she drove from amk all the way to ecp.. whahaaha.. opps.. hmm.. she was damn pissed.. keke.. boon noes her temper.. dare nt guide her on the fone.. wahhaha.. hmm.. loves it when in the car wif her.. the feeling is so nice. keke.. it'll be my turn to drive u ard soon.. yeah..

reached dear's place ard 8plus.. watched Arashi's concert wif her n her sis.. haaha.. tis pig fell asleep.. o.O" after concert, i ate the crab she brought back from amk.. nice!!!! i love crab.. been a long time since i last had crab.. oh.. iszit?? i tink i had it 2 mths ago..
we slept at 5.30am.. actualli arranged to go for breakfast at mac.. well.. as usual.. i had it in my lalaland.. o.O her sis woke us up at 1.30pm.. bt tink we went back to sleep.. n jumped up at 4.30pm.. faster get dress n off we go to vivo's marchie for our breakfast.. eh.. no.. lunch.. nono.. should be tea break.. wahhha.. whee~ i left for home ard 6plus..

love the stay.. =) felt homely.. heex..

24.11.08
fell asleep ard 3+ and woke up at 5am.. took a shower n rush out to mac.. pack 2 sets and rush off to wait for dear at the bus stop.. keke.. reached ard 6.30.. wow.. still earli.. had my breakfast while waiting for her to call.. hmm.. finalli she return call ard 6.50.. haaha.. she's on her way out to the bus stop.. we "hop" on bus and off we go to her workplace.. whey.. y we took tis bus.. journey so fast.. o.O"
Ms-Being-Irritated got pissed off during the journey.. hmm.. she look cute wif her slightly puffed mouth.. keke.. tat's the typical charmaine lim i know.. n dat's wad attracted me.. hahaa..
wow.. she was earli today.. she went for her 15mins of make up before going to work..

Oooo.. i love her smell today.. keke.. Dior.. "sniff sniff"

loves my CL tubby to bits.. =PppPP

2008-11-22T11:25:00.000+08:00

was reading thru kat's blog earlier.. i love all her postings.. especially the ones under 笨猫日记 tears start swelling while reading the 1st para of Posting 6.. i dun wish tears to be seen by anyone.. it took me sometime to find the courage to finish reading it..

i guess i saw my reflection in her blog.
she has stated most of my hidden feelings..

2008-11-20T00:37:00.004+08:00

just came back to a place i called "home"..
home??
the meaning of it is no longer there..

my attitude is getting worse since then..

life aint any meaning since then..

nothing matters any more since then..

nothing bothers anymore..

what is life now?

i'm just a lonely soul..

living each day aimlessly..

coming back to an empty room each day..

staring into empty space..

the one who loves me is no longer ard..

i should continue telling myself that she's on long vacation..

she'll be back one day..

she's not gone for good..

i should wait patiently for her return..

i feel better that way..

can you see me crying??

where are you now??

why did you leave..

I've yet drive you ard..

I've yet bring you ard..

再等着你的手拥抱我的寂寞
(zai deng zhe ni de shou.. yong bao wo de ji mo..)
别担心我, 我会好好过
(bie tan xin wo.. wo hui hao hao guo..)

2008-11-10T01:20:00.001+08:00

ahahah.. she's the choice of everyone.. me??

dun i have any right to feel anything at all??
i rather u make known to me wadever u're feeling..
at least i know hw u feel. rather than i've to keep guessing n be the last to know..

all these while i'm aware of how u're feeling.. the pain u're feeling..
thanks for upholding the promise we had for each other..
:: nt keeping anything from each other::

be it hw sad i may feel or hw hurt i might feel, u'll neva see it..
u'll onli see the smiley JC.

2008-10-20T11:54:00.002+08:00

was on the fone wif CL last nite when we listened to some of the old songs..

Bread_If, Sanderson_Reality, Xu Jie Er's songs, etc.. wow.. since donkey yrs ago, i've been downloading her favourite songs.. remembering her stuff unknowingly??? amazing!!!
N.. she called me a stalker.. =X

Its the work of "Unawareness Love" opps..

I'm on seventh heaven..

Dear,
with your presence, loneliness will fnd me never again.
with your passion and care, my lives will always be brightened up.
with your understanding, my world's a better place.

I hope my presence, passion, care and understanding for you can help to diminish each n every pain n hurt that you go through.

loves always..

2008-10-15T12:27:00.008+08:00

Beautiful Memories Created from 09.10.08 – 14.10.08
11 October 2008

Left home for work in the morning and my tubby happily sleeping at my hse.. xX n dear came fetch me ard 2pm
At my workplace and we’re on our way to Rasa resort.. whee~~ my darling claims she’s finalli feeling excited bout the upcoming
event. =) we checked in at Rasa n went to our room. Was kinda disappointed that the room wasn’t wad I’ve expected. I tot the
veranda will be big enuff for me to place a dining table. Hmm.. luckily it can accommodate 20+ pax.. =)

3 of us went for a swim by the pool while waiting for the rest to come.. ade n boon, shikin n marilyn, ken n bf, Vivian n jon came over ard 4plus 5..
The rest came over after 6pm.. =) had dinner n drinks.. wow.. was treated with lots of disgusting drinks.. poot!!
All was lyk treating each other with their self mixed alcohol.. the bottles we’ve gt was 1 baileys, 2 red wines, 1 white wine, 1 champagne, 1 volka passion fruit, volka vanilla n
Jesse came along wif jules n brought along a bottle of wine for me n dear..
Wow.. see all the drunkards and crazy fellows taking pics n drinking sabotaged drinks. Haaha.. real fun.. enjoyed ourselves lots..
Most of us were knock out by 12..

Woke up the next day morning ard 6am.. nudge dear to wake up for breakfast.. bt this pig wanted to sleep… so I went to nudge xX up for our complimentary breakfast.
Hahaa.. luckily she manage to wake up.. we headed for yummy.. ard 8plus, dear called n say she’s coming join us for breakfast.. o.O” SHE’S FINALLY WAKING UP!!!.
Wahaha.. hmm.. went to fetch her n brought her into the room.. foto taking sessions again.. keke.. enjoyed the breakfast wif the 2 of them..

Went back room n wake the rest up for a morning swim.. whee~~ morning swim with everyone by the pool.. and we checked out at 1.30pm.. proceed with my darling to our next venue.. =)

The rest came over to view our 2nd venue.. poot!! Again another disappointment.. cuz the Jacuzzi wasn’t wad I wanted.. was kinda sad.. bt managed to cheer up after dat.. the bed was damn nice.. I love the bathrobe dear wore.. hahaah.. =P I love being in the Jacuzzi with CL.. the ambience was perfect.. we had our pre-ordered in room service lunch by our Jacuzzi..

The whole stay was perfect.. =) a relaxing day by sentosa without any crowds.. just a world of our own.. we headed to marchie for our lunchie after checkout..

10 October 2008

JC’s birthday.. =)
Wish for more saving n happiness always..

Was at PLAY last nite with all good times frens..
Table was pre-booked by Nasty.. bt she din turn up.. =X
Received a surprise from dear and xX.. (thanks sweeties for the lovely mango cake =D )
xX and mich owner treated me with 2 shooters.. *faint*

Thanks for those who turned up..
CL Dear
xX our Bao
Jasper Bro
Mich Owner
Kat (another birthday ger)

Birthday wishes from..
- Dad
- CL Gf
- xX
- Jasper
- Adeline n Boon
- Amy
- Carol
- Kat
- Jesse
- Asa
- Candy Cousin
- Jeremy Cousin
- Nicole
- Marly n Shikin
- Peifen
- Joey
- Kelly
- sheena n kriz
- Frankie Laopa.. (was looking forward to his wishes.. finalli he wished me at 10.34am.. keke..)

Birthday pressie from..
- CL dear : 3 top and 3 berms, wallet, belt, dinner, birthday cake and JCCL’s foto album.
- xX : 2 shooters treat, birthday cake and cash.
- ade n boon : parker pen, card and casino chips for my mj.
- jasper bro : cash
- jesse buddy : a bottle of wine
- mich owner : shooter treat.
- jessie n xiaowei : a belt
- APC colleagues : a chimp stuff toy and a set of lighter + ashtray

Hmm.. anyone else I’ve left out??

Met dear and meiyun at her office after work.. supposed to pick her up, back my home and out for dinner..
Bt guess something else crop up.. n I chose to go home first leaving her n meiyun.. cuz I wanna rush home pack my stuff and out to buy
All the necessary for next day’s sentosa stay.. furthermore I’m meeting ade n boon later in the evening. In the end CL went home wif me..
On the way home, my evil CL text me.. “wah.. look beside? Smell good? Haha.. :X your head is blocking my tv view la. Bleahz.”
Diaox.. know y she text me?? She was sitting happily behind me.. n beside me was an Indian guy.. my gf’s evil rite.. o.O”

i received a pressie from my gf.. whee~~ she created a foto album for me.. keke.. loving it lots.. it’s the best gift I’ve received tis yr.. the album contains
our pics and msg from her.. =) the 2nd best gift I’ve received is the card created by jas bro’s gf, Eddyn. 2nd best gift cuz it contains all the blessing from each
and everyone and cash from xX and jasper..

2008-10-09T10:59:00.002+08:00

tomorrow is my birthday..
i miss the big mango cake that awaits for my return every 10 oct.
will she still gives me that familiar cake in my dreams?

2008-10-09T10:50:00.000+08:00

Brought my darling tub tub to Breeze for a quixotic birthday dinner.. =D
It made me felt dreamy.. I wanna go back for a 3days 2 night stay.. =)

A splendid stay.. its so magnificent.. glorious.. stylish.. wow.. must go there for a stay to pamper myself.. keke..

Happy happy happy birthday to my gf.. CL

2008-10-07T12:43:00.001+08:00

Our 99th day being together…

PS: I was surprise that you actually counted the days too.. =P

It’s amazing how we actually maintain this r/s n refrain it from ending in away or another during these 99 days.. =)
The time spent was memorable. I know we will alwaiz maintain it this way rite.. =)
As promised, you’ll be given all the times u need to stop all the mind fucking.. n I’ll continue to withhold the 2 promises I made to you.
You’ll alwaiz be my beloved tubby..

Darling I love u to bits.. muackz.. hugs..
Its your birthday tonite after 12 midnight .. I wun be sending u any wishes..
My wishes for you will be kept at heart..

To all frens out there, my wishes for you guys will be kept at heart for this 1 yr.
I’ve not forgotten each n everyone of you ya.. =)

Thanks to those who made my tubby’s birthday celebrations memorable event.. n I know u guys make it happen cause she’s Charmaine Lim Shi Wei!!!
I'm looking forward to seeing everyone this sat for the gathering..

loves...

2008-09-30T14:01:00.001+08:00

Dear bought me 3 top, 3 berms, wallet and a belt for my birthday.. =)
Whee.. I’ve gt new clothes to wear.. hmm.. cracking my head on wat to get for her.. its my turn to go shopping.. keke..

Had a hair cut ytd.. wor.. CL claims I look lyk Godzilla. o.O”
Its kinda cool n stylish.. haaha.. something I’ve neva tried b4.. wow.. I love my new hair..

i love my dear!!!!!

2008-09-25T09:29:00.002+08:00

whee.. thanks dear for accompanying me last nite.. =) hmm.. We attempted to haf breakfast before i go work this morning.. bt.. we over-slept as usual.. keke.. my breakfast!!!!! nvm.. i shall haf my breakfast soon.. whee.. keke.. my tubby is back at home happily sleeping under her blankie.. =X

2008-09-22T11:42:00.002+08:00

i'm blessed with my CL tubby by my side.. n of cuz all good times frens.. =)

loves CL tubby to bits.. *bites*
loves jasper bro to bits..
loves pang pang to bits..
loves silly bear bro to bits..
loves nasty to bits..
loves adeline n boon to bits..
loves.. loves.. loves..

2008-09-16T20:59:00.002+08:00

currently in skool waiting for dear's class dismissal. dear gave me a surprise today!!!! she called me at 5.06pm.. n ask me to come out from my office.. whee.. she packed the yummy salmon salad from Reload and donuts from Donuts Empire.. keke.. all chocolate flavoured.. *slurp* n a sweet letter from her.. =) thanks dear for your sweet surprise.. *touched* my tongue lost its wag when i saw her.. heex.. loves tis ger to bits.. muackz.. my ai xin bian tang.. =)

this ger noes i'll be hungry when i make my way to my BTT.. n she bought me yummmies.. n this silly goose forget to pack her own dinner.. =X wanted to share the salad wif her.. bt my hands n mouth wun allow me.. i keep digging my fork into the box n pop.. opps.. into my mouth.. NON-STOP!!!! n my donuts are my breakfast for tml.. keke.. must save my yummy for tml.. it shall be my ai xin breakfast.. keke.. wheee...

headed for my BTT at 6.45pm.. gosh.. i was earli.. started my paper ard 6.50pm.. n i ended the test at 7.03pm.. haaha.. i passed my test using 12s for each questions.. wow.. it must have been the ai xin bian tang from my darling tubby, 'her' blessings, XX n sha's help.. keke.. n of cuz.. cannot deny my IQ.. keke.. absorbing everything in 5hours..

lastly wanna thank CL baby, PangPang, Sha for their notes n accounts n support.. =P
oh ya.. Jasper bro owns my GF a Starbuck coffee.. cuz she bet i'll FAIL!!!!!! pout!!!

muacks to everyone.. GanBaTei to all taking their BTT.. i'm moving on to my FTT.. haahah..catch me if u can.. =P

2008-09-08T11:13:00.002+08:00

dear came over my hse stay on fri as usual.. =) whee.. had dinner at Lau Pa Sat and dessert at Jasper bro's restaurant.. hmm.. ended up i had 3 scoop of ice cream.. o.O" cuz my gf dun lyk the dessert she ordered (honey toast with vanilla).. n they gave her a complimentary chocolate ice-cream.. bt she still din lyk it.. dat's hw my 3 SCOOP came about.. haaha.. yum yum.. dear, isn't it a good thing your tubby's a rubbish bin? keke..

Ade cook set dinner for us on sat. she bought the food over to my hse. Jasper came ard 9plus.. we played MJ n my GF won all of us.. -roar- hmm.. they left ard 1plus 2 and my poor CL drop dead on bed.. =) thanks dear for helping out.. sorry if i neglected you.. hmm.. nvm.. i shall be ABC though.. o.O"

received a call on sun after lunch.. aunt Lilian and uncle Phillip's bringing me out for dinner.. n she insist that dear must come along.. o.O" this is the first time my gf goes family gathering wor.. it was indeed a miracle wor.. i had always wanted my gf to come along for family gathering.. bt it neva occur.. hmm.. bt i guess CL wanted to slack at home instead... n she wasn't feeling excited bout the dinner at all.. she was pooting all the way till we reach there.. o.O" hmm.. sorry dear.. =P hmm.. oh.. my aunts wanna throw a birthday party for me.. they're planning for a bbq.. o.O" its a surprise.. for the first time i felt remembered/loved by them.. use to haf it at Jack's Place and other restaurant till pri 2.. n the very last one was at the age of 21.. hmm.. bt anyway.. i'll keep mumb bout it till the plan reali carries out.. =)

the gathering hark back to the times when she's ard.. and tears accompanied me to bed without fail.. will be visiting her tis sunday.. intending to whip out some of the dishes she loves.. she loved my "mee hoon kuay", fried rice, american breakfast, vege and potato, lemon cod fish and so on.. =)

2008-09-04T14:06:00.000+08:00

Whee.. I love Thursday nite.. cuz it’s always the last nite of the week I’m sleeping on my own.. =) today is Thursday!!!

My tubby gave me a surprise ytd.. she DID NOT GO SCHOOL!!! She met Adeline at icon village and pop up behind me.. keke.. though I expected she’s coming over, bt when I din see her appearing upon seeing ade n boon, disappointment arise.. heex.. guess ade’s expression gave away cuz she was smiling trying to hide certain things.. hahah.. thanks dear for tat lovely surprise though I sorta expected.. LOVES!!!!
My CL is going for her ladies nite and PLAY. =) finalli she’s going out enjoy wif her good times clique.. hmm.. hope she reali enjoy herself tonite after all the stress n unhappiness..

We’ll be having a mini dinner feast prepared by Adeline for boon’s birthday this sat. n mj at my hse.. loser drink.. whahaha.. I like!!! Opps.. =X
Omg.., nw is onli 2pm.. I still haf another 4 hours to go.. n I’m rotting in office.. luckily Jinnie’s out for meeting.. we’re out of cage again.. hahah.. great..

I’m missing my tubby lots...............

2008-08-26T21:15:00.003+08:00

din wish to blog bout anything. bt guess i'm in here to input the disheartened feeling. so that it'll trigger me in future..

ok.. shall come back to post again..

2008-08-26T17:11:00.002+08:00

wow wow wow.. someone actualli make a comment that being a les is nothing to be proud of.. haahaa.. i nearly burt out laughing after reading.. i seriously felt myself a fool here having to entertain a bimbo.. haaha.. anyway i should say thanks for keeping me entertained.

btw if you have read through your past few post regarding xx n her ex's issue, you kept mentioning that its none of my business, none of your business.. but you kept rattling. May i ask my r/s, les world, your mom, les's parent has got anything to do with a friendster account? You indirectly brought in my gf (when u mention my present r/s is unlike yours.. ), yourself (when u tried to help him get the pw), your mom(when u mentioned that she's disappointed in xx), les world and les world's parents(when u mentioned its nothing proud ..and how will a les parent feel.. i know u mention "U" bt have you wondered.. if any les come across your blog and sees this remark, they might feel that you're talking bout them too right.. well tat's just my assumption.) wow.. thanks for reminding me its jus a minor issue.. haaha. do some reflection and you'll realise there's really no need to reply. and its really a good thing you've 'escape' from the les world.. i'm happy for you and esp all the les. you're just wasting your time. and i tink you should really swallow that sentence you commented in 2005. "i myself felt very dirty after being in straight world" hmm..

well.. of cuz i know wad's a gift. hopefully you're not trying to test my grammer and vocab when you ask me that question.you've just proved that you'll actually accept gifts from ppl whom you felt is a disgrace. anyway i was doing a test to see if you'll reply that way.. indeed you replied the way i expected. "You'll not care who gave the gift. As long as its a gift, you'll accept. haaha.. where's your pride, Miss?"

haaha.. well well.. jove jove.. enuff is enuff.. stop being evil. you're being over nasty to a girl who claimed the whole issue has got nothing to do with her..

2008-08-26T16:18:00.001+08:00

Just to comment on someone’s posting.. well.. I’ll nt mention who the party is.. I guess it rather rude.. anyway like I’ve mentioned before.. LOUTISH VS GENTEEL.

I guess it’s a waste of time, effort and money on you last time. To think that your ex commented that it was a disgrace being with you before. Haaha.. well then that’s too bad for you. Maybe you’re blinded by some stamps. No I should say its bricks though. Come to think bout it, I should be feeling rather discreditable that you were once my ex too. At least I tried to be nice in a way as not to bring that up here because its 2 different issues. I seriously think that its superfluous arguing with ppl like you. All I can say is if think you’re right, then go ahead. I’m not the only one that’s commenting your actions/speech is childish. I don’t even need to seek around for confirmation on my assumption. ITS REDUNDANT. Haahaa..
Something really puzzled me. If its really that disgraceful, then why did you still keep that laptop, that digital camera and the Nintendo playstation I got for you. Don’t you think you should return those gifts? I can’t believe you actually use them when you felt that the sender is a disgrace to you. Well.. that goes to show something to all readers here.. haaha.. I shall not comment further ya. there’s other more disgraceful acts between 22th May 2007 to 28th May 2007 which I shall not further comment ya. But if you leave me with no choice, I might have to post and let all readers comment who’s the winner.

Moreover, if I were you, I won’t even copy and paste what others comment on me, especially its something that’s not very pleasing to my ears. Showing all your readers what your ‘opponent’ fired.

In case you don’t understand phrases, “I’m going to declare war… blah blah blah..” its just a phrase trying to mean you insist on deleting it, we’ll do the opposite. Guess I don’t have to further elaborate.

Yes you’re right to say that the account is between him and XX.. it has got nothing to do with you right. And in this case, if he doesn’t know friendster setting, he has to seek assistance from you right? So in a way you’re telling me you’re involve too? Pls think before you reply “None of your business” A lot of issue doesn’t concern you in the first place. And in the first place, its between him and xX.. why get you involve? N why you did you ask me for assistance since its none of my business. And why did you bring in my present love life. Indirectly you’re bringing my gf in. So if you really feel that its none of our business, den STOP bringing so many ppl in.
Do you understand the difference between “putting words in your mouth” and “questioning you”? I was merely questioning if you did that. If I have the intention of putting words in your mouth, saying you did tat, I won’t even have question you. Don’t just fire like some rusty machine gun.. Use your brains and think before you fire.
Yes I’m going 30. and I’m proud that I’m going 30. Thank you so much for having the effort to remember my age. I appreciated it. =)
Oh I forget to add on. Frankly speaking my thinking is not childish to that extend of giving everyone your blog so that they can go read and comment. I don’t understand how a matured person can have such a mindset that her ‘opponent’ will give her blog address to others for reading pleasure. Hmm.. that’s something for me to ponder. Interesting!!

2008-08-25T12:56:00.001+08:00

Well.. to say I’m pissed, I dun deny.. I’m pissed due to valid reasons.. reason being arguing with premature beings. Just some correction before I get started. I’ve never thought I’m being great. what I can say is I’m merely trying to protect a friend whom I thinks is worthwhile. And that friend is Guo Xiang Xiang. =)
She has her rights to keep whatever under her possession. Oh wait a second.. let me try to recall. U mentioned that everything has been created by XX right? And that her ex did not do anything to Friendster due to the fact that he is illiterate to Friendster’s setting. Well.. if that’s the case, then may I ask just 1 question. “DO YOU AND HER BF HAVE THE RIGHTS TO DELETE ANYTHING THAT IS NOT CREATED BY YOU GUYS?” Pls go through this question thoroughly before u start creating hullabaloo.
In the first place,
whether she treasure him or nt.. is that a problem to you?
whether she regret or not is that your issue?
whether she did not have the ability to hold his love deep, is that your problem? I believe your answers to the above 3 questions has got nothing to do with you right? Then what is the havoc that you’re creating?
Well.. sad to say you’re one who don’t understand what’s true love. If you can withstand being with someone who’s heart belongs to another, this love is unconditional. Well.. not to mention too detailed bout it cuz I don’t see the need.
Hmm.. in the first place, I don’t think I’ve said anything that comments that corroborate you “SNATCH” someone away right. I merely mentioned that XX just have the intention of keeping something as memories. Is that something against the law? Just to comment on a sentence which you’ve mentioned. “you cannot stand your love ones heart got another party” is that the reason why you insist on removing the Friendster? If that’s the case, do you mean that removing the Friendster is equivalent to removing someone from your bf’s heart? (OMG!! Y am I speaking that way) Haaha.. oh well.. all I can say is that the trust you’ve got for your bf is only to a certain limit. Then another question. Is your uncertainty a problem to ours? Pls don’t turn your problem into our problem. You should solve it between you and him and not involve 3rd party to satisfy your needs.
XX, pls do not be perturb by these superfluous issue. It’ll just make you lose your coolness and make you talk like peanuts. I seriously don’t think you want that to happen to you right? So prove to me then. I know you can do it. =)
Lastly I would like to give you a piece of advice. Whatever things you try to erase/delete will not make a person stay by your side. I’d consider that as a childish thought.

2008-08-21T16:55:00.002+08:00

yesh!! finalli got all my plans rite for dear n my birthday party.. hmm.. nt going o celebrate though.. jus having a party for all her frens n my frens.. gonna haf a bikini party by the beach.. n having dinner n drinking session in our suite at nite.. hope it'll turn out sucessfully.. whee it seems so grand.. heex.. hmm.. can't imagine 20 odd ppl sitting by the balcony having buffet dinner.. wow..

reali hope to haf as many ppl turning up as possible.. cool..

dear.. u dun haffa worry bout me spending too much on ur birthday ya.. i have my limits. =) i just wan u to be happy k.. birthday is once a yr thingy.. nt dat i spend tis much every mth.. =) love u to bits.. muackx..

looking forward to it..

2008-08-08T15:20:00.000+08:00

Today is 08.08.08.. =) meeting my CL darling ltr after work for some grocery shopping at Carrefour.. whee.. preparing American breakfast for her n my dad tml.. n she’ll be cooking mian sian for me in the afternoon.. yummm.. I love mian sian.. =D *drools* tonite she’s going over nicole’s place for some gathering.. suppose to go over bt guess it’ll be kinda awkward.. so guess I’ll haf my own programs.. meeting Adeline n boon to haf prata supper.. wow.. can predict the amt of food I’m going to intake tonite, tml n sun.. wun we’re having a mini seafood feast wif Ade n boon at my place.. guess the cook gonna be ah boon.. haaha.. me n ade will be the one playing n watching dvds n eating.. whahha..
Sun is dear’s dad’s birthday.. hmm.. she’s going to haf dinners in the capsule.. her mom reserved a whole capsule for 2 rounds.. wow.. was actually planning for something similar on her birthday.. bt we’ve changed plans.. heez.. whee.. feeling happy.. gosh.. its 3.30 now.. n I’ve nt done a single thing.. better get back to work.. =)

loving my dear to bits.. she's mine.. CLSW!!!

2008-08-05T10:36:00.002+08:00

brought CL to Goodwood Park for dinner last nite.. we had the same dish as 290208.. n sat at the same table.. =) had uploaded the fotos in my FB and Friendster..

chat wif dear last nite bout her exs.. haaha.. i still tink n feel dat she n fox is very sweet.. keke.. the typical kinda convent skool girls r/s.. my ideal r/s.. guess girls skool r/s is still much better n sweet as compared.. haaha.. well.. its proven to me anyway.. haaha.. *mean*

hmm.. cried hard last nite though.. missing her badly.. use to tink that there's alwaiz someone at home for me whenever i'm sad.. dat's y i alwaiz able to pull thru.. bt.. nw.. ....

2008-08-04T14:44:00.004+08:00

Mr Irritant Vs Ms Being Irritated on iv.ix.. well.. no winner/loser.. =)

dear n xX came meet me n ade at Dixie on fri after dear's outing wif frens.. =) hmm.. me n ade got a bottle of Bombay Sapphire.. wanted to order martell.. bt ade cannot take tat.. haaha.. in the end ade gt drunk.. yesh!! i won.. haaha.. had supper at amk before going home.. yumm.. i love mian xian.. well.. dat day something unhappy happened between xX n ade.. shall nt eloborate it further.. everything's ok le.. =) cheers..

suppose to wake up earli to get a joint account bt we overslept.. heez.. guess gotta wait till another date where we're both free ba.. i tink i noe when.. keke.. hmm.. dad cooked my favourite dish which mom alwaiz made last time.. though his cooking nt as good as mom's.. bt still he made an effort to make it taste lyk it.. heez.. i tink dear finds it horrible.. haaha.. opps..

had our 2nd mj session wif louis n gang.. we din win much.. bt the session was quite ok though.. =) went back home n fell asleep.. tired day..

haaha.. Sun i'm the houseman.. woke up ard 3plus.. my CL happily slacking on bed while i go get the ingredients for dinner.. CL had a taste of JC's baby porridge wif Borvil.. yumm... i love Borvil.. oh.. we made a huge pot of potato salad.. keke.. sent my gf off to take cab late at nite unwillingly.. =X

i wanna make caeser salad the next time.. yum..
let's see when we haf a feast at my place.. den we shall haf our mj session wif my new mj set ya... i wanna get my casino chips soon..
hmm.. dear.. i'm sorry.. shall bring u for movies to make up for it k.. =)
JC tubby loves CL tubby..

2008-07-29T10:34:00.001+08:00

our first mth today.. =)
Dear said to celebrate years anni instead of celebrating mths anni..

Fell asleep last nite while waiting for CL’s call.. =X
Wasn’t feeling well last nite.. din drink my hot supper which I made 5 mins ago.. haaha.. poor dear went to bed alone on our 1st mth.. =X

Today CL having class.. hmm.. can’t go celebrate wif her.. nvm.. shall bring her out on sun.. =) had plans le.. heez.. tralalalalala..

JC is happy today..

2008-07-24T12:50:00.002+08:00

its something ineluctable... sense of solitude been building up within..

2008-07-18T16:04:00.001+08:00

I thank God for having u by my side for the past 26 n a half yr.. now I’ve to let you go when He calls upon you.

I’ll hold back all prospecting tears that tends to flow.. cause I know you won’t bear to leave.. I’ll see you off with a smiling face.. that’s to let you know that I’ll learn to live well with you by my side no more..

I know you’ll stay around still

2008-07-16T16:42:00.002+08:00

bored.. meddling with my new fone.. yeah.. got the same fone as dear.. =)
Joey bought hers ytd after seeing mine on monday.. diaox.. she took 1 day to make up her mind.. =X

haaha.. seems lyk everyone's changing new fone.. my aunt n cousin bought N81 on fri morning.. den mine.. followed by Joey..

hmm.. went over to dear hse last nite while waiting for jasper to meet me.. but in the end i fell asleep while seeing dear doing her filing.. haaaha.. opps.. =X i jus love dear's bed.. its too cosy le.. i guess she love my bed too.. haaha.. bleahx.. cosy.. hmm.. tonite we're going back my hse to cook n company my poor lonely dad.. he told me tis morning dat he's been sitting n reminiscing the past wif my mom in the hse.. hmm.. he actualli know hw to use tis word.. ok lah.. shouldn't be surprise at all.. he's been reading dictionary.. =X

so tonite jasper will be coming over to sleep at my hse.. finalli i can sleep wif my lights off.. =X

2008-07-15T17:16:00.000+08:00

Demise of my mom – 07.07.08
I miss you a lot.. been trying hard to stay strong, holding back each and every prospective tears whenever I come across any places which you’ve left your footprints on.. I missed receiving calls from “Home”, eating the specialties you’ll cook on weekends just to keep me at home, the tubs of ice cream u buy, waking me up when I fell asleep on sofa, giving me your personal morning calls, watching dvds together on lazy weekends…

As an expression towards my bereavement, I’ve received care and concern, contributions, astonishing attendances at the wake on every night from people around me.
It really make me realized that I actually have many true friends around. =) I love you guys much. =)

Many thanks to the following people:-
Dear, Xiang Xiang (Our Bao), Jasper (Bro), Adeline and Boon (Buddy), Jesse (Bubby) Kat and Gf, Amy (Bro), Yun, Kelly and Bf, my PHX families and of cuz APC colleagues and those whom I’ve left out.

Dear, I’m thankful that I’ve got you by my side during my down point. Blame yourself no more for arguing wif me, pushing me for detailed truth. I just don’t wish to add on anymore dejected things which will cause greater heartaches in you. And I know you’ve tried your best not to add on anymore burden to me those few days. So blame yourself no more ok. =) CL loves!!

2008-07-05T09:32:00.001+08:00

I tot..
nvm..

Thanks buddy and bro..

2008-07-02T16:02:00.001+08:00

Birds of the same feathers loves to flock.. Does it sound nice? Well.. its up to each and individual to define it base on your experience.
Hmm.. shall not further stain my blog with superfluous post.

Send CL dear to work this morning. =)
We woke up late.. argh.. no breakfast with her.. poot..
Shall let her have a taste of the JC-Wake-Up-Alarm.. *evil*

Dear, jus wanna thank you for accompanying me to visit my mom every night though u’re feeling very tired. If you wanna go have your own programs, just let me know k.. =)
BUT you cannot fish.. haaha.. you’re officially mine. =P

2008-07-01T14:45:00.002+08:00

My dear is going for her trip to Bintan.. away again?? Poot!!
Left me alone in Singapore AGAIN..

Let’s plan a short trip in Sept.. heez.. opps.. =X I tink we’ve gotta wait till yr end.. cuz I’m need to save up for our birthday in oct.. haaha.. u’re mine this yr!!! hmm.. feeling excited over it.. =)

Dear coming my hse stay wif me again.. she stayed wif me on 16th June to 21st June wor.. I wanna go supper every night.. haaha. N u’re eating wif me.. I wanna eat prata at thomson, bak tuk teh and 1 nite of cooking.. haaha.. yummy..

Gonna miss u lots when u’re away on Bintan trip.. no worries.. I’ll keep my mouth clean by the time u’re back.. kekeke.. I know my dear trust me.. if nt u wun be wif me rite.. heez.. so no worries..

i love my CL to bits.. muackz..

2008-06-28T10:34:00.003+08:00

Well.. yesterday’s planning wasn’t a surprise to CL.. =X let’s jus pretend she was surprised k.. =P

Initial Planning For Her
was to bring her to a poolside dinner at Goodwood Park Hotel, followed by Flyers where the question will be pop up.

Actual Carried Out
We arrived at Meritus Mandarin Chatterbox..
The lady smiled and brought us to the seat allocated (earlier before I brought her up)
She came to our table with a glass vase named PROMISE and she told CL that this was a special drink offered to her.
CL was surprised. We ordered our drinks and CL tried to find all the purple Styrofoam balls and start to piece the sentence.
‘I Promise To Honor N Cherish You. Will You Be Mine?’

Her answer wasn’t easy to obtain..
1stly, I was made to find the ‘?’ which she put back into the glass vase. Why? Because she claims that its not a question. =X
2ndly, I was made too tie a knot with the cherry stalk using my tongue in five mins. N the evil thing is she snapped off bit of it making it even shorter.. gRrrrr..
The ‘YES’ came only after I accomplished the 2nd task. =)

Dear.. I know the way I’ve planned to pop my question has its similarity in regards to my past. However, this is truly Jove’s Ideas. I felt this is sweet and I want to present it to you. I wanna thank you for giving me a chance into your life. I’ll ensure that you’ve made the right choice. You’ll always be my best friend and lover. And I’ll try to be your best friend and best lover. So just feel free to voice out anything alright. Rest assured we’ll be able to get things right without any conflicts. I just want to know your thinking and feelings towards each and everything that’s happening around us. Because, its ‘US’ now. No longer ‘Me & You’

2008-06-18T10:22:00.000+08:00

My dear is back on Monday!!! =)
CL came over my hse n accompanied me by staying over from mon till wed
She prepared French toast for me today.. my very own first breakfast from her. She got up 6.30am jus to prepare n get ready for work.. =X its lyk so earli.. n she haffa squeeze among the crowd in the tram wif me.. n walk a long distance to her office.. where she can simply enjoy comfort sleeping at home.. enjoy breakfast and car ride straight to office.. =X

Thanks dear for every effort u’ve put in.. I love you.. I’m glad I made my 2nd promise to you and withhold it no matter wad. =D
I’ll ensure that my hands will only find yours and NEVA will it let go.

2008-06-14T11:47:00.002+08:00

had updated quite a number of new songs for my CL.
the words found in the lyrics are all i ever wanna say to her..

Love Of My Life
I am amazed
When I look at you
I see you smiling back at me
It's like all my dreams come true

I am afraid
If I lost you, girl
I'd fall through the cracks
And lose my track
In this crazy lonely world.

Sometimes it's so hard to believe
When my nights can be so long
And faith gave me the strength
And kept me holding on

Chorus:You are the love of my life
and I'm so glad you found me
You are the love of my life
Baby put your arms around me

I guess this is how it feels
When you finally find something real
My angel in the night
You are my love
The love of my life

Now here you are
With midnight closing in
You take my hand as our shadows dance
With moonlight on your skin

I look in your eyes
I'm lost inside your kiss
I think if I'd never met you
About all the things i'd missed

Sometimes it's so hard to believe
When my nights can be so long
And faith gave me the strength
And kept me holding on

Chorus:You are the love of my life
And I'm so glad you found me
You are the love of my life
Baby put your arms around me
I guess this is how it feels
When you finally find something real
My angel in the night
You are my love
The love of my life.

2008-06-13T22:20:00.003+08:00

slacking at mac nw wif adeline n boon.. xx said she's coming over join us..
jus finished planning my CL dear n my birthday celebration.. hopefully it'll be successful =)
had some doubts bout tml's durian hunting.. heard from boon dat he came across python n cobras n other venomous snakes ard.. haf to be very careful.. well.. after hearing dat, din reali felt dat keen afterall.. haaha.. cuz i'm afraid of snakes.. =X

another 2 lonesome nights n my CL will be back.. waiting for her to call me nw.. din reali wanna call her cuz she's wif her parents n it wun be nice tat her fone rings ba.. =)
yawn.. i'm falling asleep soon le.. i need my vitamins.... where's my vitamins.. *cries*

JC missing CL badly.. =X

2008-06-13T14:55:00.001+08:00

Life Without Dear – 3rd day
3rd day at work without dear.. that’s so fast.. another 1 more day my baobei is coming back.. =) I sneezed many times today.. haaha.. CL dear missing me!!! =P
Baobei called me last nite at 11.52pm.. we chatted for 6mins 32s… heez.. I was at amk mac with Jasper bro.. Our plan resumed last min. haaha.. baobei took a ferry to HKG in the morning n back to her hotel at nite.. wah.. she ate a lot.. o.O”
I oso wan.. =X we shall go next yr.. heez.. she’s going to bring me to a restaurant when we go over next yr.

Accompanied Jasper till 5plus this morning.. I was busying planning CL’s birthday.. =D

Tonite meeting Adeline n boon again at mac.. i’m looking forward to tml’s trip.. we’re going durian hunting!!

Haaha.. fun.. dangerous.. n ….. zzZzz JC’s asleep

2008-06-12T16:32:00.001+08:00

I miss my dear soo much soo much.. *cries*
I wan my dear..
I miss Charmaine Lim Shi Wei….. my tubby… my baobei.. my dear.. my spring roll…

2008-06-12T10:49:00.001+08:00

Life Without Dear – 2nd day
Today is the 2nd day at work without dear..
CL called me last nite at 9.30pm.. she was back in her room. That’s so earli.. o.O” we chatted for a very short while which seems like a few seconds.. bt it was 4mins 16s…

Took a bus back home with Adeline. Met Boon, Jasper and Vincelyn.. chatted for awhile n Vincelyn left for home. We stayed on till ard 11plus. Its amazing hw Jasper dash for the toilet at AMK station. Hahaah.. she took 5mins to run there n back from where we sat.. Bt after she came back, I told her I rmbed there’s a nearby coffeeshop.. wahahah.. u should look at her expression when she heard tat.. hahaha.. evil JC

I reached home had my late supper n fell asleep hugging my tutu.. =X 1st lonesome night without my baobei…

We had plans to meet up again at AMK mac with individuals lappy to surf the net this evening. Sounds fun right.. but too bad.. Adeline back out last nite saying she was lazy.. haaha.. so the plan was cancelled. Guess I’ll going home after work ba.. shall update again tml.

Another 3 more days to go to welcome the return of my dear. =D
Must be patient.. wait.. wait.. wait.. wait.. argh!!!!!
Shall go read her mails for me.. Read Only When You Miss Me!

2008-06-11T13:49:00.000+08:00

Life Without Dear – 1st day
Today is the first day at work without dear..
Received a lot of emails from her..

-Emails to read only when I’m angry!..
-Emails to read only when I miss her!..
- Emails to read only when I feel sleepy!..
- Emails to read only when I’m stress!..
- Emails to read only when I miss her a lot a lot a lot!..
- Emails to read only when I’m pissed!..

Some of them are wif cute pics which make me burst out laughing.. make me feel sleepy.. n miss her more!!! That evil CL!!!

Well.. as usual.. out of curiosity, I read all the emails at 1 shot.. hhahaa.. bleahx.. well.. I’ll still read them when I’m in one of the above mood.. =D

Dear did all these after work ytd with me waiting for her downstair for 1 hour plus.. =X I tot she’s busying wif her work wor.. o.O”
JC loves CL.. huggies..

Hope she’ll feel better during her trip.. missing her lots.. =’(

2008-06-10T14:28:00.000+08:00

i'll be missing my dear.. =(
leaving for HKG tml..
life without my vitamin provider's morning call..
without her companying me to chat on my way to work..
without her companying me email the whole day till we meet up after work..
without her companying me chat during lunch break..
without her by my side after work..
without her on the fone wif me till we fall asleep..
jus without her.. her evilness..

JC's miserable life.. starting XI.VI.VIII

2008-05-30T14:50:00.001+08:00

23rd May 08 CL surprised me wif a dinner at crystal jade Korean restaurant. My first surprise dinner from my tubby. *touch*

29th May 08 I received my very first perfume from my tubby and She received the very first bouquet of flowers from me.

Had our dinner at Nabins an Arabic restaurant. Great food, service n ambience.
Enjoyed each n every moments spent with CL, be it alone or with friends..
Simply just love this girl to bits.

Am surprise that this love can lead to an inducement for ‘unconditional’
For the very first time I see her smiling so happily towards my gift.
I’m contented!!

2008-05-27T06:04:00.000+08:00

The declaration date - 12th May 2008
The chosen date - 29th Oct 2008

The day she reali become mine to behold after so soo soo long..
Thou will continue being ur pillar..
Thou will withhold all promises made to you..
Showering you with happiness n love..
Holding on to your hands and neva let go..

2008-05-26T10:17:00.000+08:00

17th may 08
baobei cooked for us at amy bro's hse.. i love baobei's cooking.. =) slack at bro's place wif xx n baobei.. jasper bro n kat came after dat ard 2plus.. i wanna sleep!!!!

loves.. hope we'll be tis close alwaiz..

2008-05-16T07:19:00.001+08:00

Song dedicated to JC from CL

To: JC, with love
I may not be your perfect girl, but still thanks for loving me for who I am.
JC, loves!

From: CL

For all those times you stood by me

For all the truth that you made me see

For all the joy you brought to my life

For all the wrong that you made right

For every dream you made come true

For all the love I found in youI'll be forever thankful baby

You're the one who held me up

Never let me fall

You're the one who saw me through

through it all

You were my strength when I was weak

You were my voice when I couldn't speak

You were my eyes when I couldn't see

You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach

You gave me faith 'coz you believed

I'm everything I am

Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly

You touched my hand I could touch the sky

I lost my faith, you gave it back to me

You said no star was out of reach

You stood by me and I stood tall

I had your love I had it all

I'm grateful for each day you gave me

Maybe I don't know that much

But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were always there for me

The tender wind that carried me

A light in the dark shining your love into my life

You've been my inspiration

Through the lies you were the truth

My world is a better place because of you
I'm everything I am Because you loved me

2008-05-06T15:02:00.000+08:00

Our KL trip - 4days, 3 nites

Eat eat eat - Buikit Bintang, Petaling St, KLCC, Time

Square Sleep sleep sleep – Berjaya Time Square

Shop shop shop – Bukit Bintang, Petaling St, KLCC, Time Square

Play play play – Time Square Cosmo Theme Park, shooters and ladder game

My first trip wif CLSW my “alwaiz” baobei.. enjoyed/loves each n every second spent wif u.. including the tantrum tat woke me up from my sweet dream.. haaha.. I woke up wif that blur look.. n faster get changed n off to Theme park.

Baobei enjoyed herself during the trip !!!!!!!!! tat’s the most important thing… let’s plan our 2nd trip.. Whee =)

Someone actually had supper wif me every nite.. n its reali a feast.. yumm.. I’m beginning to lyk Korean cuisine.. haaha..

Exams are round the corner.. must concentrate k.. keep ur mind off all the redundant tots.. if wanna haf ramdom tots, haf it after all ur papers.. dun let it affect ur studies k.. let’s go studying.. hmm.. go library.. haaha.. I can read my books n sleep.. =D I wanna read weather climate, geographic, Atlas etc.. haaha.. my favourite books.. these are the onli books which will nt haf yawning effect on me.. =D

Loves CL

From jovetubbies aka xiao maomao aka SBT (sensored) =D

2008-04-25T16:36:00.000+08:00

This Blog Is Especially For My Darling Baobei CL.

We had our enjoyable and sweet moments these 2mths irregardless of the numerous minor down point. We had our smiles n laughter though I know they did not really contain happiness, I really appreciate the effort you put up in in order to show a strong front.

At times I might piss you off in a way or another, but do believe that it is out of unintentional. I’m trying my best to be an ABC towards all your “emo” postings etc. This pillar of yours will always try to remain strong for you to lean n cry on.

I appreciate the times when you came all the way to surprise me, to bring smile back on my face when I’m down or pissed, accompanying me to gatherings despite the fact that you’re tired, accommodating me to have meals at certain areas when you feel like having it elsewhere; because you’re aware I’m hard up, catching the bus home early though you feel like going out have fun; because you know I’ve to take last bus home.

Every single thing you do, I’m really appreciative cause its YOU who’s making all the efforts. The 2 promises I made to you, I’ll remember and fulfill.

Winter snow is falling down

Children laughing all around

Lights are turning on

Like a fairy tale come true

Sitting by the fire we made

You’re the answer when I prayed

I would find someone

And baby I found you

Chorus:

All I want is to hold you forever

All I need is you more every day

You saved my heart

From being broken apart

You gave your love away

And I’m thankful every day

For the gift

Watching as you softly sleep

What I’d give if I could keep

Just this moment

If only time stood still

But the colors fade away

And the years will make us grey

But baby in my eyes

You’ll still be beautiful

Chorus:

All I want is to hold you forever

All I need is you more every day

You saved my heart

From being broken apart

You gave your love away

And I’m thankful every day

For the gift

(piano solo)

Chorus:

All I want is to hold you forever

All I need is you more every day

You saved my heart

From being broken apart

You gave your love away

I can’t find the words to say

That I’m thankful everyday

For the gif

2008-04-11T10:14:00.000+08:00

Disappointment filled me once again and this time it really slap hard.

Thanks jasper bro for your eggy Maggie and the 2ppl mj session. The warmness came at the rite time. Loves..

it was till ytd dat i realise.. waiting, miracles, pinning of hopes exists.. I wished.. I hoped.. bt I’ll rather..

2008-04-10T15:52:00.000+08:00

Alrite.. I’m here to blog.. =)

Guess wad.. baobei came fetch me from work ytd again.. =D bt.. tis silly goose walked all the way from cityhall to my working place.. diaox.. its lyk soooo far can.. almost ½ hour walk.. under the hot sun??!! diaox.. hmm.. *touch* but there’s a sense of indescribable feeling.. I dunno.. just hate to see her being alone.. moreover walking so far under the sun.. =(

Hmm.. ok.. another confession.. ya.. there was a tiny tweeny emo feeling ytd.. =P bt was ok after seeing her.. hmm.. silly goose alwaiz try to make my day though she was feeling tiny tweeny emo herself.. dat’s wad made me strong.. =)

I received a surprise on 9th April.. she sang a song for me wor.. heez… the title of the song is… Beautiful Love.. haaha.. one of my favourite song.. neva for once tot she’ll be the one singing for it me.. =D though she wasn’t feeling reali good at tat point of time.. be it physically or mentally.. she managed to brings a smile.. loves..

2008-04-08T02:42:00.000+08:00

tis few days were sweet.. has been slacking at baobei's place.. hmm.. i'm no longer shy.. haaha.. i loves vitamins.. =P

baobei.. i know u ain't feeling ok at times.. i'll try nt to be emo k.. =) i noe i haffa be stronger than u are.. in order to be there for u.. helping to keep u going strong.. things ain't easy for u now.. jus take things easy k.. =) i'll try my best to make u find ur smiles again..
i'm learning to read ur blog wif a "bo chap" mindset..
dun worry bout me ya.. =)
wad matters most to me is finding ur smiles n xingfu back again.. i dun care whether doing silly things iszit being considered a clown.. all i noe is as long as it makes u smile.. i'll smile.. =) loves..

2008-04-05T08:25:00.000+08:00

3 vitamins today.. omg.. *thump thump thump... pooof* hrt flew off..
went amy bro's place for feasting together wif xx, baobei n yun.. fun fun fun.. slack at bro's hse after xx n yun went off.. haaha.. fell asleep as usual.. o.O after i wake up, baobei fell asleep.. we left ard 3plus to her hse.. slack n chat at the playground area till morning 7am..

thank baobei for accompanying me.. i noe u're tired n ur eyes are lyk half close.. =) loves.. muackz.. =D

2008-04-04T16:46:00.000+08:00

no more emo chimp again.. heez.. loves.. smooochhhhh... we'll stay in our dreams lyk tis forever.. no more disturbance.. i'll protect u from them all.. will neva scold u when u cry.. will onli wipe tears off ur eyes.. n make u smile..

accompanied baobei to her class ytd.. i fell asleep in class.. haaha.. luckily neva snore..
*shy* went haf dinner at KAP Mac... happy..

2008-04-03T00:44:00.000+08:00

baobei gave me a pleasant surprise today.. she came fetch me from work.. *happy n touched*

2008-04-02T12:18:00.001+08:00

28.03.08
Met baobei at TYP n proceed to turf city to collect our first car.. we rented Fiat 8597.. nice no. We drove to Nicole’s place for steamboat and stayed there till 11plus.. we routed ard jurong areas den decided to go amk play pool.. when we arrive amk, amy called n ask us to fetch her home from boat quay.. off we go.. heez.. baobei drove me back home after picking up amy..

29.03.08
Woke up earli to cook lunch for baobei.. made her cod fish with broccoli and potato cubes.. she came fetch me after work ard 1.30pm.. yeah.. feeling great.. she had her lunch in the car at my hse downstair n we’re off to the zoo.. she loved the white tigers there, also penguins n manatees, haaha.. I love the baboons, penguins n giraffes there.. I went for my KFC at zoo.. yes!! we proceed to her clubhouse bathe n went fetch shikin and marlyn at their place.. wow.. one end to another.. heez.. met Adeline n boon at far east for dinner at far east.. baobei was in her clubbing mood.. n we left for dbl O.. met her frens kenneth n dom there.. din reali drink much.. =P opps.. we drove to hkg café for our supper ard 4plus.. n she drove me home cuz I need to wake up ard 7plus..
Baobei n frens went T3 without me.. wad??!! Without me… hmfph!!!

30.03.08
tis day was fun n slacky.. hmm.. actually was feeling bery xingfu/sweet.. =P we woke up ard 2pm.. n baobei came fetch me ard 3plus.. we drove to haf our late lunch.. Bak Kut Teh at Beo Crescent.. haaha.. blur chimp make poor baobei drove round n round the area.. luckily we manage to find it.. heez.. =P ordered baobei’s favourite food.. yummy.. tink of it make me drools.. heez.. after lunch we decided to drop by great world city to shop for big bird’s present. I lost my hp while trying clothes at Esprit.. luckily baobei help me got it back.. heez.. if nt all my msgs will be gone.. *cries* after shopping, brought baobei to haf dessert - cheesecake treat.. =) she gt herself a strawberry cheesey mousse n lime juice I got myself bailey’s cheesecake wif morning ape.. yum.. haaha.. baobei’s horror.. morning ape!! After our treat, we went collect our car n drove to Esmirada for dinner.. nice nice.. they had their “good luck day” n the waitress start smashing plates on the concrete floor.. baobei tried smashing 1 too.. heez.. Hmm.. we drove to mosque st. to look for big bird.. she had her singing competition at Yuan Dian.. we stayed for awhile n left for our ECP.. yeah.. I love beach trip at nite.. keke.. guided baobei to my fav. Spot n we sat there from 11plus to 1plus.. n we packed mac on the way back.. Heez.. I wanna go ECP wif u again.. l wanna watch sunrise wif u.. =) Reali enjoy the times spent wif baobei.. i love going beach with baobei at nite.. heez.. huggies!!!!

2008-03-23T22:57:00.000+08:00

i've received a surprised xiuxiu from her ytd.. was reali surprised that she actualli went to find n got it for me when she learnt tat i lost it.. feelings for her is growing stronger each day.. i wanna bring her to wherever she wanna go.. eat wadever she wanna eat.. do wadever she wanna do.. as long as she's happy.. jus wish to see her happy n xingfu alwaiz..

finalli i found the rite song to sing to her..

felt kinda sad cuz i left her alone last nite.. dunno y having tis feeling.. jus felt bery sad y did i leave her alone.. =(

2008-03-22T09:42:00.000+08:00

Unintentional and unaware feelings do actually exist..
Pampering her in my very own ways..
Nv for once show her attitude/temper..
Noticing all her small little movements..
Making complaints bout her just to cover up unintentionally..
All these I realized only now..

We had our first date on 29th Feb.. brought her to goodwood park coffee lounge for dinner.. Gave her a nice surprise.. =) met up wif xx after dat n went NOS.. had our midnite movies after NOS..

Went to Evon’s chalet on 1st Mar.. apparently, a disastrous thing happened…

12th Mar she had her ladies session.. I went to meet big bird n fren at NOS.. went over earlier n had drinks alone.. She gave me surprise by poping up suddenly.. no words describes my feelings at that point of time bt jus hug her tightly.. its so sweet of her.. –melt totally-

Went to big bird’s chalet on 18th Mar.. I bbq for her while she rush her assignments out.. drank quite a lot.. cuz was feeling happy.. we drove out to get more beer.. n I bought her her favourite ben’s & jerry ice cream.. felt so xingfu in the car.. my dream scene.. love dat chalet trip so much.. =D left on 19th morning n went white sand’s mac.. accompanied her from 10plus till 6plus.. she finalli finished her assignment..

Jus wanna say.. the times spent wif u are memorable.. it brings me happiness.. n I’m going to announce out loud.. I’m going after Charmaine Lim Shi Wei.. my baobei.. i wanna hold your hands for as long as I can.. so make sure u’re alwaiz feeling cold k.. i wanna see ur sleepy morning look alwaiz.. n u'll alwaiz falls under category 1, 2 & 3 no matter wad.. =D

be it past n present, i'll neva change the way i treat u.. the same old treatment that u've alwaiz noe.. n towards u, i'll alwaiz be smiley.. i'll neva have the need to complain anymore.. =D